I was kinda wondering what the hell am I doing these few weeks, since my new semester had started, I felt that i was slacking through the past 6 weeks. I feel very unproductive and ashamed of myself. This week is the 7th week, and it's ending! Poly life isn't as easy as what people say, come in and play and get out in 3 years to work or pursue your studies. Lecturers don't really care about you listening to his/her lessons, they just speak through the whole lessons. It's up to you if you want to listen or not.

That life is ending real soon, I want and must end it by tomorrow, after tomorrow, I am going to slog hard for everything. I know it's going to be difficult for upcoming days, but I want to conquer it, be it my business, studies or relationship. I don't have a girl friend now, but if fate arrives, I don't mind having one, I know for sure my parents will roar at me if they know I am involved in a BGR, but I want to prove to them I can manage those stuffs well. Leaking out a little stuffs? Kinda crushed on a girl last week, she's my secondary school friend's friend. I won't force things to happen, but I will try. My main priorities are to excel in business and studies. If I was to rank, I really do prefer to do business instead of studying. BUT BUT BUT I might be thinking of that now, and I know that I will regret in the future if I don't study now. In Singapore, students study for the sake of the certificate to work, but I must prove that I am different, I study for the sake of the knowledge and experience. I don't really do well in studying seriously, but I am willing to work hard for it. Even if I were to get lousy results, but as long as I can proceed on without retaining, I am very happy.

I don't know what will be my parents idea if I were to have BGR, have it secretly is not what I want, I want them to know that I can cope well with everything, because I am not the old Jie Meng, I must show them I am matured to cope with things I faced. Few weeks before I had arguement with my parents on my business, but since it's solved and after 2 days of not talking to each other, my father did the first step to communicate back and we are back to the good father and son relationship, which I want. I know myself, I am stubborn, YES sometimes I am very stubborn, I will try my best to correct that.

Today just had engineering materials test, went on well, but today's test is 50% weightage. Tests coming up, got to really mug hard. Time to go, ciao.